Dear blog,
I have to speak now or forever hold my peace. Or I have to deal with that friggin' annoying nag. My own conscience. I honestly didn't know I had one. Ah, but writing this out will help i know. So tell me, do you know anybody stupid enough to read a book about procrastination, pick the same book to write a review on, and still manage to procrastinate on handing in the assignment?
Yea I know somebody like that. Think you know him (her?! HIM! HER!!) It must be all the sleeping I did two nights in a row. Just for the sake of defending myself, (by the way I hate to do this, when i mess up, I truly know that I do and I don't usually bother making excuses for it) I was sick two nights ago. BUT, yes , I could have started earlier.
I have an apology to make to myself. I let myself down. I am not going to sit here and moan about it, I'm going to finish the damn thing and I know i will. I'm going to park my butt here and not go anywhere (or surf the net, check friendster, look at pictures of my cicak or go to my inbox) until I am DONE.
But let me finish telling you about my sin ( I am NOT laughing right now and neither should you, dumbass). So I got off to a really good start, you know? I picked out the book, I read it, I was doing ok with other work, it was just when I saw the deadline come closer, I felt myself get all phobic again. It's like I'm afraid of even coming here to start typing the damn thing. It's horrible I know. Everytime a deadline looms large in front of my eyes I sleep more, I eat more, I spend more time outside than necessary and I end up knowing exactly what is on tv (I barely watch tv, so what the hell is up with that?).
I can't ask anybody to smack sense into me but myself. Why? I know plenty of people who would be willing to do that for me (I know plenty of people just waiting to smack me, period) but I feel like I need to do this for myself. If I have to be punished, so be it. If someone were to nag me, or to become my cheerleader, I'd probably do it because I'd feel bad for letting that person down. So it wouldn't be for myself and what am I going to do when that person isn't around the next time?
Phew, well I feel better already and ARGH I'm almost there. GRRRRAAAAWWWR.
Maybe I should actually scream for real. That would help, no?
Time Crisis, here I come.
On a sidenote, to the people who are reading this (and to you dear, yes you I know you're reading this) you are in no way responsible for me being a pushover. It is me, all me. I am the culprit. I am also, unfortunately, the victim. But nobody is to blame except for Mil.
And there will be no more of this. I promise you and I promise me.
You are more than welcome to smack me around a bit, thanks.
6 comments:
*smack*
It happens. I get the same feelings you feel close to a deadline. I'd do my research weeks early, know the question inside out but when it comes to actually typing the thing, I get sluggish.
You're the Psych student here. You tell me why that happens.
Good luck with the assignment. And make no apologies for these kind of things. You've no one to say sorry for except maybe yourself, so don't feel too bad.
Yep I already said sorry to my sorry procrastinating ass. The first step is admitting you have a problem, no? So the next would be to make it disappear. Ack.
Thanks Syar, I am not alone!
Hey mil.
I know how you feel. its something about work and procrastinating.. its hard to get rid of it... apparently like julian...the ass. (sorry to bring him up...just read the few last posts.)Anyways i miss you so much and I LOVE YOU hehe. i have to call you soon. I need to be updated ;)
Vivek- I know you are and I can only thank you again. I love u to pieces. and I miss u!
Jacq- Tell me about it. I miss you too.
Take care over there. =)
mill... tell me when you are able to take calls from canada. I"M CALLING YOU THIS WEEKEND!!!! :)
jacq- sunday is good anytime. =)
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